With a new year comes new thoughts or aspirations on how this next 365 days could be better than the last. Personally, in years past I could care less about making promises to work out more or eat better. I knew myself. I knew I would commit and a month later see that chocolate ritter sport bar at Trader Joes and say, screw it...I like chocolate too much.
This year however, I find myself with a new perspective.
instead of empty promises to myself, I have a few things I am going to strive to do more of this year. For no other reason than because I believe it will make a healthier me on the inside.
a few things i'm striving to do in 2014:
I will be documenting Cohen in a series that some have heard/seen already, but every week for 52 weeks, I will be taking a portrait of him. Not only will it be a great project to look through once this year is complete, but it will challenge me to photograph Cohen more with my actual camera and not just my phone. My baby is growing up more each day and I want to remember the little things about him that change or are new with each passing week.
a portrait of my son, once a week, every week in 2014
His favorite thing to do this week in our room is climb on the bed and steal sips from noel's water cup. This is his, totally caught face.
When I have free moments that aren't committed to work or catching up on Zzz...I will be put my efforts into creating. When I was young I would spend hours by myself painting, drawing or making some sort of art. Recently I have been dabbling again into those things and found I get so much joy from doing it. Lately I have been making pom pom everything, and painting verses for friends. There are some things that I fill my time with that are comforting for that moment but don't accomplish anything. I'm looking to push past the default this year, I think it'll be good for me.
The little blessing's jar.
Inspired by a fellow instagram mama who felt she needed some encouragement being home with two young children. She thought to record the little things that she sees as blessings throughout the day and when its been a particular rough one, she can reflect back on the blessings she has and not dwell on the negative. She encouraged other moms to do the same and I couldn't help but realize that is something I would benefit from greatly. Some days are just hard being a mom, (especially when you are forced to be inside for a lot of the winter) and by doing this for a few days already I am noticing a difference in my attitude. I'm seeing the blessings more clearly, acknowledging them right away and recording them. When I feel overwhelmed, and I say when because it will definitely happen, I can grab a few blessings from the jar and realize what i have to be thankful for instead of focusing on how many times I've said "no" to Cohen that day.
One from the other day..."so thankful for the rare five minutes of cuddling I had with Cohen after he woke up from his nap."
This year I want to focus on making myself healthier in a non physical way before I stress about my outward appearance. By resetting my focus on what Jesus has done in my life and the blessings that I have been given and the ones that I can count on getting, I have hope that this year is going to be a fruitful one for my soul.